Road trip planning

Road trip planning is hard yet exciting! Over the past few days i've been making list of places to visit, places that are a must stop, things to do and so on. I am enjoying the many suggestions I am getting from my friends. At the same time I am learning about all these places I never knew existed. There is a lot to think about, but it is something I am very much looking forward too. I have in my pocket a list of beaches. I wish there were whales during the month of July to visit. Yeah that is my lunch today... it was nasty, Garbanzo bean soup. My friend and I wanted to put some on the toilet and make it look like someone forgot to flush their poop. Would of been funny, but I am learning to be more of a lady so I had to have some self- control. Anyway there is my list of beaches to visit next to it. Not sure if those 2 go together... BUT I am excited for this vacation. Seeing all of California, doing some photography, hanging out with one of the coolest guys I know, relaxing by the ocean, bike riding, lots of driving, writing, listening some cool music along. I am just excited. I am sure it is obvious. But these experiences come once in a life time. Traveling and learning languages and just knowing about other parts of the world is very damn exciting for me. I think I have made the decision to go back to school and do the International Business Communications program. Tuesday i'll be speaking to an advisor.

So here is a quick list of places I have in mind that we are visiting in Cali. We are going to Washington and Oregon, but I still have to look into it. If there are any suggestions please feel free to suggest.

San Francisco, San Diego, San Clemente, Big Sur, Moterey Bay, Sequoia National Park, Santa Barbara, San Luis Obispo, San Jose, Palo Alto, Santa Cruz, La Jolla, Pismo Beach, ALL OF LOS ANGELES. And I don't know I have more stuff written down on pieces of paper... I have to look in my pockets.

Point is, this is probably going to be one of the most exciting trips of my life. Everyone should do a road trip some time in their life. I am sure over the next few months i'll be discussing this as the days gets closer. But I am in the beginning stages of planning. Although I need to prepare for this Vegas trip as well.... for some reason I fear Vegas. Strippers scare me... and I have a feeling that they will be involve on that trip. :/ Always hear about these weird Vegas stories... I just hope to come back in one piece.

I am eagerly waiting for these 2 other jobs I have applied for. Funny thing is that both are in 2 different industries I want to get into. One is at the airport and the other is for TV. SO here I sit waiting. Ugh. I guess I better learn to be patient because I still have 2 more weeks of waiting before I know anything.

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Round 3

Hope everyones weekend was great. I did another shoot today for my friend. At the same time I discovered a new place to overview the city. It was very peaceful and amazing. Such a lovely day in L.A. I had my camera in one hand and my slurpee on the other. No joke. It was really nice to have the weekend off as well. I really appreciate these guys allowing me to take their pics. Anyway if you want to check out some of the other pictures from the shoot today, just click on the ones on top and it will direct your to my flickr. By the way I think I am in love... with my 50mm lens that is. I think that was the greatest thing I have ever bought... besides my future iphone 5. I am waiting for Verizon to get their hands on that and I'll be upgrading this summer!

Saturday was fun, had movie night with a few friends... and jesus the swedish language is something else. Foreign films are always very interesting to watch. They really go out there. Thank god most of them are not censored... funny how Americans can be very delicate with that stuff. And speaking of film and blah blah blah. I found about a great program at my old university, International Business Communications. I was going to go look into it and see what I decide from there on. The program sounds very interesting and something I would like to do, plus I have experience in Public Relations so I think I'll do find, I hope. Anyway I am literally working on my German... so i'll excuse myself to everyone who I have tried speaking German too... I know it's weird.. but you are benefiting my future. Thank you.

So I was watching a show today... well there was a character on the show that felt that no one cared for him, his friends, family and so on. It got me thinking. I think sometimes we want people to be obvious to us in showing us they care. For example, Valentine's day is coming up and I am sure many women, yes women.. are expecting something. I think we tend to forget to see that we don't need a Valentine's Day to have someone show us the obvious. I think if we stop and notice the little things around us, we will notice how those special people show they care about us. With the little things they say, or do, or even wear, those are hints or reminders that they care about you. I don't even think they need to say it. Maybe it is me... over the weekend it kind of hit me that I was overlooking some thing a few years ago. Too busy focusing on something else that I never took the time to notice something. I know I am being vague here. I don't want to get super personal so i'll leave it at that. But my point is, if someone cares about you, you will know. Maybe it takes time to realize it. Hopefully it is never too late to say thank you for caring for me or to show it back. You know? Not sure if I am making sense.

I've been going for runs like crazy this week. It is such an awesome feeling. I highly recommend it. Put that ipod on and run. Literally. I don't think i've ever felt this healthy or energetic in my life. Tomorrow more RUNNING!. I really wanted to do the marathon in L.A. this year, but I am not going to pay $145 for the city to let me run. plus 26 miles might kill me... although I am sort of intrigued in heading down to San Diego in June and doing the half- marathon... 13 miles. I can totally do it :/..... haha.

Anyway thanks to everyone who reads my blog. Means a lot to me. I hope that it is enjoyable and so on. And I am super excited to see I have 4 followers! Alright I am off to go watch some more foreign films... no super bowl for me. Although those commercials are always brilliant. Have a good one everyone!

New York/ L.A.

Two of the most amazing American cities. Although I gotta give Seattle some credit for an amazing time. BUT lately i've been eager to go to NYC again. I was going to buy a flight to go, then I realized it is snowing and freezing. HELL NO! It is freaking sunny in L.A., even though it does get freezing at night. I guess to me NYC was an amazing city. One of the best cities in the world. Although i have yet to see more. So here i am, always debating in my mind if to one day move there or not. I know I can probably manage to survive :/, but then again Los Angeles has amazing weather, amazing spots, and GRASSS! Something I rarely saw in NYC, besides Central Park. But LA is home as well, my friends and family are here, my car is here! I know there are many industries NYC, so finding work might not be as hard.. actually I don't know. But one thing I know is i'll miss home. SO I probably would give it a shot for a year or 2. Just have to really think about it, right? As long as it is a zombie free zone i am good, but no seriously, I can see myself there. I felt comfortable and felt excited being there. It could be because I was on vacation though. Although it was pretty weird speaking to people who were latin and not mexican. Accents throw me off! We will see what happens. I just need to go with the flow of things right now. But I think I need a break from here. I think sometimes we all need breaks from our homes and our daily lives. I love my family but jesus, sometimes I need to get away. I am sure we all feel like that at times... Who knows... speaking of who knows, I received some great advice from my friends at work.

I deleted the last post I put because I didn't want to give myself a pity party. With that in mind, I have really great supportive friends. Yesterday I got many pointers on how to sell a script. I need an agent... which is weird for me too say honestly. I need to finish up my script as well. I have the habit to write down my ideas and never finish a script. So usually when i write stuff it is in scratches of paper. When I look into my pockets I always find some piece of paper with stuff i've written. I need to get more organized. The point is, I have guidelines now. But I still need to figure out what and where I want to concentrate career wise. So I am going to cut myself some slack and explore my options. I did realized though that I want something to do at an International market. The funny thing is a little half -Hungarian baby made me realize that. haha. Yeah all I wanted to learn was about the mother's culture, I kept asking her questions on how things are said. When I went to Hungary it was amazing, but wow that language is something else. Anyway it made me realize I want to do something international. Just have to see what and where. But this weekend I shall be doing another set of engagement photos. So I am totally excited for that. It is always good to do hobbies that distract you from real adult issues. ha.

Going back to family, I had some issues to deal with today that were stressful. But I do have to say this. I am lucky to have a very patient mother. Mothers do know best and they know how to make us feel better. Without my mom I don't think I would be a working human being. I know we all fight with our parents at times. And they aren't the best people at times, but at the end of the day she is the one that I know can make me feel better after a bad day. I know it is not mothers day yet but today proved to me that my mom is an amazing person. She will feed my friends, even if it is a bunch of oranges, she made us mickey shape jello, she makes us laugh by not pronouncing things correctly, and she let's me cry when I need too. So with that in mind, I am lucky to have my mother.

So one thing I am doing to keep myself busy is planning out the road trip I'll be doing hopefully in June. It is kind of fun, I am discovering many places I never thought off, even here in California. I am excited to get out for a bit. It's always fun planning out trips. There is so much to do! So I am looking forward to it. I think my list just keeps growing in things to do. I am sure it will be an awesome time. Never done a massive road trip like this. Something new is always exciting! Seeing San Diego to exploring LA. To driving all the way up too San Francisco, Seattle and maybe even Vancouver... traveling is always an amazing experience for me. Oh trust me there are more cities on that list.

My work coming to life.

I got my first article published for the local magazine! I was supposed to write about the development that is going on in Ascot hills, the trail I hike too. It was so cool too see my work in print! I also got a save the date invitation along with a few pictures I took. And today my other friend took some of the pictures from her shoot I did with her and printed them out. It is pretty cool to see my work outside of my memory card. I think I am enjoying this photography stuff... but I know I want to do it for fun. And I think each day I enjoy it more and more. It is nice to see people enjoy my work. I will be doing a few more shoots this weekend and in the next coming weeks. I appreciate everyone that is allowing me too. I think I am going to build that portfolio and then see where things go from there.

My parents have always allowed my siblings and I too express ourselves artistically. They hate it. Last night my sister was sharing her amazing art projects, along with a giant head mask of a fly, which I love to wear to scare my dogs. And it is great to see her express herself artistically. She wears her green, blue, skittled colored hair, dresses how she wants, and makes art all day. I admire that. I was able to express myself as a child in writing, drawings, and film. My brother always drew his comic books and now is working on his special effects make-up for film classes. My mom mentioned that now she knows she will never have a doctor in the family but she enjoys our creativity and hopes we can enjoy all that stuff for the rest of our lives. So I am glad to have very supportive Mexican parents. I am lucky. Parents are an interesting form of human kind. Sometimes we forget that they are people who have dreams, who were once young and got in trouble, or who sometimes wish they never grew up. My friend Brenda and I were discussing how on New Years Eve her father was giving us a lecture on not drinking that night, while at the same time I was hiding a giant bottle of Champagne under my car seat. I felt bad but her dad scared me! haha. He is a good man. But even at 25 years old, parents always treat us as kids. I think it makes life entertaining. I am dead set in making a comic book called, My Mexican mother. I always enjoy hearing her curse names to the TV as they show half naked women... Mexican shows are weird! Some of the things she says are hilarious and very out of context. Yeah, parents do stress us out sometimes, but they teach us a lot. Whether we notice it or not. Even if sometimes we don't get a long with our parents, we still appreciate them. I just had a cup of coffee with my folks. It is nice to take the time of day to spend time with them. My dad always talks about Mexican history and my mom always talks about Jesus. But I enjoy hearing them.

Ok lets' talk OSCARS. I usually get excited over this and still do, but I think this year I am pissed at the academy. I applied for a job position as a Press Guide and asses never called. I know it's a job I qualify for. I speak another language, i've work in a studio in International Publicity, I've worked in 4 different studios, I HAVE ALL THE QUALIFICATIONS!!!!! BUT I feel because I didn't go too UCLA or USC I have become an automatic reject. SOOOO when I win my Oscar I will give my speech and say "SUCK it academy... Oh and thank you Jesus". But in all seriousness, one of my friends' has encouraged me to apply to a program at the Director's Guild as an Assistant Director. They want women on there and I have all the qualifications they need. I am scared to do it, but at this point I have nothing to lose. So I believe i'll be applying for this in Sept. I hope. Ok so going back to the Oscars... AHHHHHH! I got to worked with nominated Oscar actors. It was so cool to see The Fighter and True Grit being nominated. I still have my hotel card from the Coen brothers room and my Fighter movie premiere staff pass. I even got my W2 forms for my taxes from New Line Cinema and Paramount Pictures. SO how can I not get excited over the whole movie world!? By the way.. I already know who is going to win, Natalie Portman for best actress, Colin Firth for best actor, Christian Bale for supporting actor, and Melissa Leo for supporting actress.... now I have no idea who could win best picture. But True Grit will win nothing :( (Yes that poster of True Grit is legit.. I was there as they were signing it :D) and Inception will win everything it was nominated for except for Best Picture... still possible though, I need to think about it. Ok I think I am going to start a pool with a few friends.... Anyway I am soooo excited for that day! But the Academy does need more people of color, for realsies.

Complications

I wish decisions that we make in life were as easy as making cookies. Even if you didn't know how to make cookies, attempting too is probably easier than dealing with real life issues.

Nothing dramatic has happened. Everything is still the same, but I have had a lot to think about. I was going to take a break from writing on my blog and focus more on writing this script that I have been wanting to do for a few months now. Then I was going to try and get an agent. Well I still am going to try and complete that. But I am not sure if i'll be taking some time off from writing on here yet. Today I had lunch with an old friend from elementary school. It was amazing to see how successful he has become. It inspired me. Because of him I must say I am highly considering improving my photography and creating a portfolio. Now with that in mind if you ever want to do a shoot, let me know! But going back to this, there are so many things I want to do and still have to do. My mind set is at full speed right now. And yeah I am a bit all over the place and it is scary because sometimes I conflict with myself in whether I want that career or to try to do the things I have been wanting to do. I sometimes wonder if I should stick to what I know. Photography is an amazing hobby and if I can make money doing that, it would be great. I am just afraid to be mixing hobbies with work. Does that mean I am going to hate it? Most of the people that have known me for years know that film has been in my heart forever and ever. When I was a child my dad was a janitor at the movie theater. He used to take us to the movies after school, weekends, every other day. That is where I was as a child. And here I am in a competitive industry facing a new challenge every time I get back in there. Right now I am waiting for a new job and I am more than eager to try something new. My friend telling me that there is possible work in photography is exciting, but it is scary. I always feel that there is always someone better, whether it is in photography or film. I mean yeah I got to work with Oscar nominated talent, but yeah I was an intern. Ugh I need to stop being such a wuss and continue to thrive for what I wanted. But then again what do I want? I want to travel, write, do film, win an Oscar haha. I guess nothing is stopping me from doing all those things. Nothing but myself, my own fear of failing. I know there are a lot of people that believe in me. And knowing that I have gotten my foot inside those studios is amazing. But I now I need to take a step further and not let go of opportunities that cross me. Not let go of the opportunity of being young and being able to do what I want. Yeah I eventually want that amazing job at a studio or magazine, or whatever. I do want to stay put. I've always wanted my major company job and wear cool suits and stuff n' stuff. But right now my fear is stopping me yet it is inspiring me even more in the creative side of my goals. Maybe this blog may lead to something, maybe not. For now though I need to stop intimidating myself and comparing myself to others.

Yeah I am mexican, yeah I grew up in a nice area, yeah we lost our house, yeah I am poor. But I know that everything will be OK. I am glad to be surrounded by people who support me. Now I need to support myself more. So what is my plan you may ask? Since I sound all over the place, besides getting my marshmallowed filled hot chocolate. I am going to build up my photography portfolio, I am going to write my script, and I am going to pray to my lucky stars that I get this production assistant job, and I am going to improve my German. So that is the plan for now... I'll worry about March later... like next week haha.

Sick Days

I've been super sick over the past few days. I had to call out of work which is something I RARELY do. So I spent most of my time watching the Office, SKINS (UK Version), and sleeping. SO with all that in mind I've been having weird dreams and for a second felt pretty high as I listened to Lady Gaga's new song. I felt like I was having a bad trip inside a German Rave or something http://perezhilton.com/2011-01-20-new-music-from-lady-gaga-scheise One of the dreams I had though was a bit sad :(. I was living in NYC by myself going grocery shopping. And the reason this dream sucked was because I was by myself. And all I remember is saying I am so alone and I want to go back to Cali with the people I know. Ha. I know deep shit huh? I am sure it was all the medication and one of the shows I was watching had to do with a similar concept. Either way weird how dreams make you feel like you are really there. And how sometimes they make you realize what you are really feeling. I was supposed to do a test photo shoot today but yeah it isn't happening. I am doing another set of engagement photos soon. So I wanted to prepare but I guess Ill have to wait. I seriously hated getting up and going to the toilet. So I am glad I am a bit better. Anyway, I would like to apologize in advance if you texted me or talked to me during this period and it seemed that I wasn't paying much attention. I seriously couldn't make sentences. Thank god for cinnamon tea with lemon and honey!

So one of my friends had texted me telling me, "I need to have fun again". It caught me off guard. Having fun again? Well we were discussing this and she felt that her life has become such a routine that she feels she hasn't had fun at all. Sometimes we need to get ourselves out of those routines and change things up. It can be a night out for some ice cream, movies, attempting to roller blade, I don't know, my head hurts, I can't think for too long haha. But hopefully you catch my drift. I guess you can't always rely on others or your significant other to make things "fun". I am not going to lie and say I haven't had fun with my friends recently. But I don't mind going for hikes on my own, or doing some reading, or photography on my own. I guess you have to find those hobbies that you enjoy. Or new activities for that matter. I really want to volunteer for the Humane Society and walk dogs. SO hopefully ill be applying for that next week. But things like that. Yeah it sucks when you tell yourself, I need to have fun again, well then do something about it! Sometimes we do get consume by work and school, papers, and real life problems, even by comfort, that we forget to go a bit our of way to enjoy ourselves. But this is why we have friday nights and weekends off! well most people. My advice is plan something. Even if it is a trip in a few months, or applying for new jobs, or attempting to learn something new, or a trip too museums. And being broke shouldn't be an excuse to not have fun, making cookies is always fun or staying in and watching a few movies at home can be equally enjoyable, especially with your significant other. Make things fun for yourself. And don't put too much pressure on having someone else make things fun for you. Make sure you can make yourself happy and then that is how you can make things fun for yourself and someone else.

Ok so I am keeping this post short. I just drank some more nyquil during the day. I really need to get better. I am tired of being sick twice in less that 2 weeks! Anyway enjoy a segment of the Handsome Men's Club... this is actually really funny. Well I think so! I might be a bit delusional but come on it's MATT DAMON!

Californication

Winter in LA doesn't exist. I had 4 days in a row off from work... something I haven't had in A LONG TIME. Not even during Christmas break. So what did I do? A LOT. Today I went to the Getty Center in West L.A. with my friend. I had never been there before. I had a great time. Having a coffee, watching the sunset, walking around. Awesome. As we sat there we both realized, wow California is awesome.

There was a point in my life where I wanted to get away from here. I hated being here because it was such a routine. But having these days off and being able to explore the city reminded me that I love this city. This is home and an awesome place with so many things too do. From the beach to the city, to art, and to culture. What ever I do or wherever I go, I can safely remind myself that L.A. is awesome. And of course I am excited to see the rest of California. I have done a lot of things in this state but there is a lot I still need to do. A lot I still need to see. I think I have fallen in love all over with home. I tried reading Eat, Pray, and Love.... you know that book is bull shit. I in no way can relate to a wealthy, 30 something old, divorcee, white woman, who gets to travel and do whatever she wants. I think I want to write my own book. I am not trying to force someone to be inspired by me... but at least have some other option of people too look up too? haha. I don't know. When I was having a conversation with my friend today we asked ourselves many questions. What we want to do, have we always remained true to ourselves, and have we lost those passions for the things we wanted to do? So what am I leading to you may ask... well there is a lot of things I want to do. I remember when I was a kid I wanted to be an actor. My mom asked me yesterday if I still want to do that? I told her I am not sure, sometimes I am curious. But I know I want to write. And I am working on it. I am enjoying the freedom I have right now. Exploring who I am and who I was.

These past few days I have been able to do that. I am still the same person I have always been. I have new hobbies and I still do old ones. I have the same dreams and now that I have achieved my dream to get a degree... it is time to explore my other passions. This road trip I am planning on, I plan to write. I am not sure on what, but maybe on self exploration. There is so much you learn about yourself when you travel, when you take a break from your routine, when you are with other people. Who knows what will inspire me. I do plan to settle eventually but as I spoke to 2 of my friends today, they made me feel good about my decision to explore my life. It is also nice to be around people who have the same passions as you and people you can relate too. These past 4 days I was happy to have those people around me. The reason I started to write this blog is also for self- exploration. I am able to express myself in writing. And it is nice to hear the great compliments from people who read my blog. I want my friends to get too know me at another level. And I think this blog is doing that. I know I may say a lot of none sense. But I hope you the reader enjoy this and may feel relatable to me... and with that in mind:

Ask yourself this... am I doing what I want to do? Am I still true to myself? What are the things I have to look forward too? Does Deissy make sense? haha. Well not that one. But I hope you remain true to yourself and to your friends. That the people in your life inspire you and make you happy. And the goals you have are achieved. SO for now I know I want to write and take my camera everywhere... start documenting life more in photographs.. well my life. Thanks for reading and check out my pics :) http://www.flickr.com/photos/deissypf/