Sick Days

I've been super sick over the past few days. I had to call out of work which is something I RARELY do. So I spent most of my time watching the Office, SKINS (UK Version), and sleeping. SO with all that in mind I've been having weird dreams and for a second felt pretty high as I listened to Lady Gaga's new song. I felt like I was having a bad trip inside a German Rave or something http://perezhilton.com/2011-01-20-new-music-from-lady-gaga-scheise One of the dreams I had though was a bit sad :(. I was living in NYC by myself going grocery shopping. And the reason this dream sucked was because I was by myself. And all I remember is saying I am so alone and I want to go back to Cali with the people I know. Ha. I know deep shit huh? I am sure it was all the medication and one of the shows I was watching had to do with a similar concept. Either way weird how dreams make you feel like you are really there. And how sometimes they make you realize what you are really feeling. I was supposed to do a test photo shoot today but yeah it isn't happening. I am doing another set of engagement photos soon. So I wanted to prepare but I guess Ill have to wait. I seriously hated getting up and going to the toilet. So I am glad I am a bit better. Anyway, I would like to apologize in advance if you texted me or talked to me during this period and it seemed that I wasn't paying much attention. I seriously couldn't make sentences. Thank god for cinnamon tea with lemon and honey!

So one of my friends had texted me telling me, "I need to have fun again". It caught me off guard. Having fun again? Well we were discussing this and she felt that her life has become such a routine that she feels she hasn't had fun at all. Sometimes we need to get ourselves out of those routines and change things up. It can be a night out for some ice cream, movies, attempting to roller blade, I don't know, my head hurts, I can't think for too long haha. But hopefully you catch my drift. I guess you can't always rely on others or your significant other to make things "fun". I am not going to lie and say I haven't had fun with my friends recently. But I don't mind going for hikes on my own, or doing some reading, or photography on my own. I guess you have to find those hobbies that you enjoy. Or new activities for that matter. I really want to volunteer for the Humane Society and walk dogs. SO hopefully ill be applying for that next week. But things like that. Yeah it sucks when you tell yourself, I need to have fun again, well then do something about it! Sometimes we do get consume by work and school, papers, and real life problems, even by comfort, that we forget to go a bit our of way to enjoy ourselves. But this is why we have friday nights and weekends off! well most people. My advice is plan something. Even if it is a trip in a few months, or applying for new jobs, or attempting to learn something new, or a trip too museums. And being broke shouldn't be an excuse to not have fun, making cookies is always fun or staying in and watching a few movies at home can be equally enjoyable, especially with your significant other. Make things fun for yourself. And don't put too much pressure on having someone else make things fun for you. Make sure you can make yourself happy and then that is how you can make things fun for yourself and someone else.

Ok so I am keeping this post short. I just drank some more nyquil during the day. I really need to get better. I am tired of being sick twice in less that 2 weeks! Anyway enjoy a segment of the Handsome Men's Club... this is actually really funny. Well I think so! I might be a bit delusional but come on it's MATT DAMON!