Re- Evaluating Friendships

So for the past few days I have been sick. Therefore, I haven't really done much photography or much of anything but sleep and Nyquil. I am a bit better so I am hoping that tomorrow I can go and have a photo day in Downtown LA. with 2 of my closest friends. Plus a run. My ass has gotten lazy. Anyway this brings me to my next topic, which is FRIENDSHIPS.

Yeah I have been thinking about my friendships. It is funny to see which ones matter to you and which ones don't. You know I have always tried to be a good friend and be there as much as possible. Sometimes it feels that the other person may not appreciate you or put equal effort. So the question comes up, what makes that friendship valuable. Memories? The good conversations that still come up? The fact that you know that person will be there for you even though you don't speak for a week? OK so what doesn't make that friendship valuable? When they don't support you in anything? When all they do is bring you down? When there is nothing to talk about? So why keep their number? OK if you are my friend and you are reading this, you may be wondering, "Shit, did I do something?". And the answer will be no? I am just talking in general terms. Over the past few days I have been hanging out with a new friend that I met last year. And I started thinking about my other friendships. How some of them have changed and makes me re-think if it is worth having those people around? But going back to this friend, it is awesome to meet new people you can relate too. So I am glad we have become good friends, if you read this I hope you know who you are.

SO, yeah the memories are there, but if you are constantly out of touch then why even bother to still be friends with someoen? I was talking, well texting, my friend George A. over the past few days. I've known this guy since I was 8 yrs old. And we rarely talk or see each other. And it made me wonder...why do I have your number? Why are we even saying hello? is it too not feel guilty of ending a friendship? or is it because we have known each other that long and why not continue? It's not like we have conversations or anything really. And just that thought made me wonder about my other friendships. I don't want to throw names on here. But my friends from HS, I still talk to most of them. Some I have fell out of touch with. Yeah it sucks but if it wasn't for some of those friendships ending, I don't think I would of allowed myself to open up to other people. SO I guess in some way it benefited me. I wasn't stuck in just one group. Here is an example. Violet and I have been friends since we were 14... and we still are. We were always together, then we grew, and we didn't spend much time together. But it allowed us to open up to other people, learn new things about ourselves, and still managed to keep each other around. Because in those hard times, we were there for each other. We don't speak or see each other as much as we used too, but when we do I can spend hours talking and that is how I know that friendship means the world. And I have another friend, who I constantly argue with that makes me wonder, I don't think it is a good idea to be friends anymore. I guess this is an open letter to all my friends who read this.

If you have been in my life regardless of the time period, you meant something to me or still mean something to me. And whether we are still friends or not anymore, thank you. I have learned a lot about myself through all the people i've met. And to the ones that I have told "you mean a lot to me"... well you probably still do. And to the people I am still friends with, my life with be boring without you guys. So I always enjoy hanging out with you, for a coffee, to going too a museum, or working together (Kayla that especially means you!), I always enjoy that time. Whether we are running together, or texting each other about zombies, too talking online about Justin Bieber, or playing Princess Bride for 3 hours, hanging out at yogurtland for hours, or even going to the Archlight theater to watch our Oscar nominated films (I raise my pinky), I always enjoy and appreciate your company and time.