Californication

Winter in LA doesn't exist. I had 4 days in a row off from work... something I haven't had in A LONG TIME. Not even during Christmas break. So what did I do? A LOT. Today I went to the Getty Center in West L.A. with my friend. I had never been there before. I had a great time. Having a coffee, watching the sunset, walking around. Awesome. As we sat there we both realized, wow California is awesome.

There was a point in my life where I wanted to get away from here. I hated being here because it was such a routine. But having these days off and being able to explore the city reminded me that I love this city. This is home and an awesome place with so many things too do. From the beach to the city, to art, and to culture. What ever I do or wherever I go, I can safely remind myself that L.A. is awesome. And of course I am excited to see the rest of California. I have done a lot of things in this state but there is a lot I still need to do. A lot I still need to see. I think I have fallen in love all over with home. I tried reading Eat, Pray, and Love.... you know that book is bull shit. I in no way can relate to a wealthy, 30 something old, divorcee, white woman, who gets to travel and do whatever she wants. I think I want to write my own book. I am not trying to force someone to be inspired by me... but at least have some other option of people too look up too? haha. I don't know. When I was having a conversation with my friend today we asked ourselves many questions. What we want to do, have we always remained true to ourselves, and have we lost those passions for the things we wanted to do? So what am I leading to you may ask... well there is a lot of things I want to do. I remember when I was a kid I wanted to be an actor. My mom asked me yesterday if I still want to do that? I told her I am not sure, sometimes I am curious. But I know I want to write. And I am working on it. I am enjoying the freedom I have right now. Exploring who I am and who I was.

These past few days I have been able to do that. I am still the same person I have always been. I have new hobbies and I still do old ones. I have the same dreams and now that I have achieved my dream to get a degree... it is time to explore my other passions. This road trip I am planning on, I plan to write. I am not sure on what, but maybe on self exploration. There is so much you learn about yourself when you travel, when you take a break from your routine, when you are with other people. Who knows what will inspire me. I do plan to settle eventually but as I spoke to 2 of my friends today, they made me feel good about my decision to explore my life. It is also nice to be around people who have the same passions as you and people you can relate too. These past 4 days I was happy to have those people around me. The reason I started to write this blog is also for self- exploration. I am able to express myself in writing. And it is nice to hear the great compliments from people who read my blog. I want my friends to get too know me at another level. And I think this blog is doing that. I know I may say a lot of none sense. But I hope you the reader enjoy this and may feel relatable to me... and with that in mind:

Ask yourself this... am I doing what I want to do? Am I still true to myself? What are the things I have to look forward too? Does Deissy make sense? haha. Well not that one. But I hope you remain true to yourself and to your friends. That the people in your life inspire you and make you happy. And the goals you have are achieved. SO for now I know I want to write and take my camera everywhere... start documenting life more in photographs.. well my life. Thanks for reading and check out my pics :) http://www.flickr.com/photos/deissypf/