The Past few days...

Over the past few days I have been all over the place. Not like a crazy person but literally. I am trying to finish up my grad application due by Friday morning :/. I have to leave to Las Vegas Friday morning. Today was a busy day too. Not sure how I found time to write for this but I guess this is what I was doing as I was trying to kill whatever time I had.

Earlier today I went to the doctor with a friend, lunch with my old bosses from Paramount Pictures, school to pick up my transcripts, home to pee, and then to my friend's house for a photo shoot. Overall I am pooped. I haven't even made an attempt to go running last week. Finally went hiking yesterday but this week i'll get back on track on all things. I guess all this can be considered moving on. No one wants to dwell on their feelings all the time, there is so much more to do for ourselves that if we are ever in a funk, we need to snap out of it ASAP, and move forward. I guess that is one thing I have learn from my last relationship 3 years ago.... no crying over spilled milk! Pretty much meaning, there are bigger things in life to worry about. Yeah gas is $4 bucks a gallon, now that I am worried about. Actually not really... once again things could be worst? And maybe it is time I invest on a Vespa? Imagine driving that shit around LA? I would either get run over or have a blast!

It was nice to see my old bosses. I believe a job position might open up for the Photography Publicity Creative department, for an assistant. And since I mentioned to my bosses that I started photography they are hoping to get me in, if this position opens. Pretty much it means doing photography for our publicity events, sending them out to the media and our website, helping to promote out films further. So here is to hoping and to not thinking about it. Yeah I don't want to get my hopes up so i'll just forget that this was mentioned....

It's nice to be back in the routine of busy. Tomorrow is equally a long day, work, pick up recommendation letters, run, and I don't know whatever else I need to do. I've been so distracted, that I apparently didn't notice this hot guy without his shirt... believe it or not I was thinking about gum. HA!

So what has been going on ey? Last night I went with my friend to the Airport. Random I know, but it's nice to go there and feel like you are going somewhere even though we aren't. I finally had the chance to talk to my best friend about things and felt actually pretty good for the most part of yesterday. Today I feel really good. I have no idea why? haha but I guess it is a good thing. My friend and I were reminiscing on the group of guys we had crushes on. How we had given them nicknames and called them The Strokes. All that hair. We were so lame and shy. Always scared to talk to them, so we used our Drama teacher as a medium of communication. We also used a chalk board to leave messages and when they responded we were always speechless. Haha honestly I am glad to have grown up already, but how could my friend and I forget about the Strokes! I hope they are all doing well, i am sure they loved the attention though. Too bad we were embarrassing ourselves at the same time.

High school was always full of great memories for me. I remember Frau Yancey (my German teacher) calling us turkeys every time we didn't behave. I remember my Film classes, all 3 years of it. How much that was my comfort zone, editing projects, talking to my friends, writing, and more talking. It feels right going back to school, I am actually very excited and hope to get into the communications department. I have looked into the study abroad program and will speak to an advisor monday. I think I might be heading to Germany... not sure what part or what exactly but all signs seem to be pointing there. My mom wasn't too fond of Germany so she told me if she visits she will meet me in Spain. :/. Sweden has a great program too but only for undergrads, and Denmark has a program where they send you to London for a few weeks to meet with people from media related segments and at the same time be in school in Copenhagen.

But going back to this, I believe there is a program/ fellowship, where I get to pick anywhere I want to go and do my research project. Any country. Apparently, the CEO of New Line Cinema did it. Funny, when I was an intern there I was so scared to even look at him and now I might be going down the same route as him. I am also seeing my options in the UK. So we shall see where this road leads me. I'll be gone from LA for a year or so. So any of my friends out there, I expect a visit of some sort. I am sure it will be hard to be alone and have no one. But I think this will help me become more independent. It has always been something i've wanted to do. Travel, live on my own, be at another country besides Mexico. I am not going to lie, I am scared the balls out of me! not seeing my family or friends, or the constant sunny weather, or the smell of pollution, or the taste of real Mexican food... but I think i'll be more mature and a better person. Germany would be interesting, hey even going to Sweden would be something... I just hope that overall it will be a positive experience and that I won't cry missing my mommy. and hopefully in the future I can end up saying, "I'm CEO bitch". (Social Network reference)

I realized there is a word I hate... Heartbroken. No no not because I felt it but because honestly it's a dumb word. I just think it sounds funny when you say it. Not that I am being in-sensitive, obviously i've use this word, but I think it makes me feel so weak. This is my advice kids out there who have had their hearts in the shits.... don't let it make you feel any lesser or weaker than what you really are. Keep your mind busy... there are still so many more things to do out there. Yeah feeling down happens, but technically your heart isn't broken... just busted for a few days or weeks. And hopefully there are people out there to bandage that up and keep you truckin. Funny as I write this my sister is watching the Shining. So hearing the scary music in the background is making me not take my words seriously haha.

Ok so i'll be leaving to Las Vegas in a few days. I will most def. write about my experience. I plan to be wasted from 5pm- 8am, and sleeping on the other hours. I am sure I will have a blast. Dresses aren't my thing but I guess all this will be a new experience. The shorter the more free drinks? Ha I am a lady, I would probably be too shy for this shit. Either way I am looking forward to it. Getting out of LA, making this a better week for me, and just travel somewhere new. I am not taking my Canon SLR, I don't think i'll be able to hold it. SO my point and shoot will have to do. I have started planning my trip to Europe, going solo or not, still not sure, but it will happen for me, crossing fingers. Berlin, Amsterdam, Vienna, Stockholm, Copenhagen are all on the list. Let's see how things roll with that too. Not going to discuss that part any further until I have my damn flight! Seriously you can't blame me for trying not too get too excited. I need to now be sure that stuff will happen before I start thinking about it too much in my head. Although my friend did invite me today to tag along for Disney world next year. That would be cool!

Ok here is a pic i took from the shoot today. Click it and it will link you straight to my Flickr.. Alrighty, I am going to go lay down. Super tired! BTW if you haven't seen this film called Talk to Her, please do. It was so good, from Spain. Have a good one everyone.