So Far.

I haven't done much writing in the past few days. I like to say I have been in a slump? Family can really stress you out let's just say. And other little things that have been going on that I am processing in my head. So I am trying to snap out of it and here I am. Over the past few days I have felt very sarcastic. So excuse my sarcasm, but I know it is actually made some of you laugh. I think I need to start writing the nonsense I say.

I have this co-worker, some of you may know her and may soon realized who I am speaking about, Kristina. Now this kid is probably the most genuinely nicest person, positive, friendly, talkative person I know. Reason I bring her up is because she is one of the few people that kept telling me to smile. And when I tried to fuck around with some joke or sarcasm, she will go along and i guess for lack of better words, feed my ego, but then she remind me to stop and be happy, but for real. I think I want to be her when I grow up... although she is younger than me.

I think we all go thru periods in our lives where we lose motivation, ourselves, our goals, our thoughts and so on. We forget what made us happy and let it go. Sometimes we give up. I went running yesterday and was upset I only did 3 miles! Then again it was too hot. Point is, I guess I am trying to just snap out of my weird funk. It happens I suppose. So far here is something I will not do, plan anything ahead of 2 months? Let's see how far that goal goes. I am a planner.

In 2 weeks I am off camping. It will be nice to just breath the ocean water and get away. Not constantly be thinking I suppose. And then I am set to buy my flight to Europe. I am freaking out because I am actually going to do it. Most people I talk about this trip too are very 1) amazed I am doing this, 2) tell me I should do it, 3) call everyday to make sure I am alive, 4) Watch the movie Taken before I go... Uh no. Anyway I guess it is happening, now is it a mistake that I am going? Why would it be? This is for me and for me only. I am the one that will be hanging out with myself and doing what I want. Ha I am starting to sound like a crazy person. It should be an interesting experience. Two weeks go by so fast and then when I come back it is back to "normal life". And hopefully something else that will be equally exciting will be on it's way. I better get into Grad School.

Anyway yesterday I went to Santa Monica. I used to go there often. It has been a long time, but I know the area pretty well. Just hung out by the beach, talked to my friends and then went out for some beers. It is always interesting to go to bars and observe how older men prowl on women and try to pick up on them. It is entertaining as hell. Lovely weather in L.A. to stay in. Today I was supposed to go out to this new exhibit http://www.moca.org/museum/exhibitiondetail.php?id=443 about street art in L.A. But since it is opening today I think I am going to hold of on it for tomorrow. Crowds!

I think one of the things that freaks me out is seeing how fast time is going by. We are already heading to May. Can't believe that a few months ago I was expecting something totally different. Oh well that is how life rolls. By June it will be something totally different.

I think I need help for my addiction on my iphone. I literally love it and hug it. haha. Well I hugged it yesterday. Anyway I am off, Grandma is actually visiting from Mexico! Good because I won't go over there.