Europe

Some of these pictures are from my Trip to Barcelona in 2009.

Looking for flights is overwhelming. Too overwhelming that I was pretty close to buying my flight this week and getting it over with. I actually have decided to buy my flight next week. I am as of right now considering going to Stockholm, Copenhagen, and Berlin. A friend of mine had given me great pointers about traveling. Her boyfriend lives in Germany, Kiel I believe is the name of the place, close to Hamburg. She was kind enough to offer his help in guiding me around. So I am glad I have an option on not being alone.

I am not going to lie, I am scared the shit out of me to go there and be alone. I don't know what to expect, but I am excited to see something new and to get away. As of right now i'll be heading out there August 23- Sept. 6. A long time huh? I have no idea what I am going to do, how i'll get around, so I hope I can get a few more pointers. I promised my friend and mom to call them as much as I could, since i'll be alone they worry. I can't blame them. But this will probably make me more independent. I hope to have a bit of self- discovery. So the question is, me going to Europe alone... does it make me brave or stupid? If you answer this, please be nice? haha. I have been reading articles on traveling alone and so on. I hope to meet new people, learn something new, breath clean air. I know once I buy my flight, i can't chicken out. And it is set and done. I think when I think about this trip my heart beats fast... fuck. FUCK!! Thinking about it now is making me nervous. But I might have some interesting blog postings. And maybe i'll inspire someone out there to go and do something adventurous. Because right now this will probably be the most daring thing i'll do... I will never sky dive, scared of heights! I won't eat Bull balls, I won't even get on a roller coaster... so this trip is a big deal. Europe is a wonderful continent, full of beautiful countries. I appreciate the diversity there is and the history there is to learn. But it still doesn't mean I am not scared. Anyway if anyone has any pointers on how to go about things I would greatly appreciate them.

So I finally got my iPhone 4! I tingle a little. I was very excited and still am... not sure if it was the best investment of my life, but it makes me so happy. I just want to rub my face on its' smooth screen. I love it. Although i'll miss my old phone, I can play Angry Chickens! (Ok Angry Birds, but those look like chickens to me... if they are capable of flying why to I need to Sling Shoot them?) There are so many awesome Apps... I think I need more... I am open for suggestions on these, please!

On a serious note, I was thinking about a few things over the past few days. Love. What it means to some, how you know you are in love? when do you know you aren't? Does everyone get to feel it? Is it really true that you can close yourself to the opportunity of it? No I am not in love. But I was watching this older couple argue a few days ago and it made me think, with all that argument going on, at the end of the day can they really be without each other? If people divorce, why did they get married in the first place? What keeps them together and what makes them give up? I know I am going into deep shit right now... but I have obviously had a lot of time in my hands. :/ But if you meet someone who gets you, why let them go? I guess I don't understand any of this. I hope this couple that was arguing makes it thru. I hate seeing marriages fall apart. Everyone deserves to be happy, especially with their significant other. So many experiences to share with your best friend, why would you want to lose that?

This is going to sound weird, but a few days ago I had a dream that I got married. It was weird shit! I was marrying some random dude and my aunt goes up to me and asks me, do you love him? And I said nope. She then asked why are you marrying him? And I said I don't know I thought that is what you do when you grow up. She then said... "no, you marry when you love someone and if there is someone that makes you happy that is who you should be with." I stupidly responded "ohhhhhh". Weird huh!? OK I am going to shut up on the serious stuff.

Anyway, I want sushi now. HA talk about random.

In a few weeks i'll be off to my camping trip. Get some nature in me. I have always loved camping. Never gone to the beach to camp so I hope it will be fun. Will probably be a total opposite of my Las Vegas trip. But it will be nice to get away. I am not going to lie, I feel the need of something exciting. I think Europe will be my fix. AAHHHHH!!! I AM SCARED! I think i am even more scared to turn 26 in 2 months! AY DIOS MIO!